Weight Gain Process
Whenever I start to get healthy I feel like I have to re-learn how to be healthy, but at the same time I have to learn how to be fat every time I regain my weight. Many people do not realize that this is part of the yo-yo effect of gaining and losing weight. There is so many more emotions and thoughts that go into both processes.
As you start to gain weight the first 5-10 you really notice and start working and trying to focus on wanting to get the weight off as soon as possible. But, life happens and some times you can not stay focused enough to get the weight off. Instead you maintain or start to gain a little more. Before you know it you are up 20-30 pounds. At this point normally you have to go out and buy some new clothes, but you will only buy a few because no matter what you will lose the weight again.
At this point there is a group of people that find their focus and start to lose weight and get healthy again. Then there is another group of people who just don’t have the motivation or will power to get healthy and lose the weight. These people are the ones who continue to half try and get healthy but in reality they are really just passing time learning how to eat and be unhealthy.
Once people reach 50+ pounds gained they just kind of give up if they have not found the motivation to lose the weight. When you are 50+ overweight you just go through the motions you think about getting fit, but you are waiting for that aha moment to motivate you to lose weight. You are comfortable with wearing and shopping in the larger sections of the clothing stores. But, for those really wanting and waiting for there aha moment they are the ones who still refuse to buy clothes that fit them. They will just buy enough to get by because as soon as they get the motivation and determination they are waiting for they will will start to lose the weight.
Locating My Position In The Process
For me the over 50+ is the hardest part of the entire process because it is the point where I realize all the work I have done has been for none. For me, it has meant hiding from the world because I do not want to be known as the girl who gained all her weight back. Instead I would rather shut myself off from the world, friends, and family to hide the fact that once again I have failed not only myself but them.
Knowing that I stopped caring and that I let this happen to me is okay, I can handle that. It is the looks and feelings of disappointment from others that is hard for me. I hate admitting that I have once again failed then hearing the “I told you so” from people. There are few things that compare to the extra “kick” some people decide to give you when you are already feeling bad about the situation. By the way, this is always one of the big factors that push people to the over 50+ weight gain and stop them from finding their motivation and determination.
The hardest step is always the first, just like a 12 step program you have to admit you have a problem and then fight every step of the way to improve and change. That is where I feel I am at, every day I find that I have those tricky questions of doing something healthy or not. I know I have the motivation and determination right now to become healthy, but I have to make sure that I still feel that way when I am faced with those choices. Every morning I remind myself of my why I am doing this and spend at least 10 minutes listening or reading something motivational that gives me a little push to commit to being healthy all day.
In my first week I have lost 5.6 making my weight down to 214.2 pounds and down 12 inches making my inches 375. This Monday and Tuesday are my first deep cleanse days and I can not wait for them and how beneficial I know they will be. I also can’t wait to see how they help reduce my weight and inches for next week.